J. got his 4 month shots today. He held up much better than I anticipated. He cried of course, but within minutes was smiling and laughing. He does love people, much more than I do. I wonder if he'll retain this trait or if it will be worn off as he gets older. Right now he's so sweet and loving toward everyone. The doctor said at 6 months babies start to fear strangers. I worry that somehow I will take this perfect, loving, laughing boy and mold him into a copy of me, in effect ruin him. I want him to be what I've failed to be, but I don't know if that's possible. Hmm.